I have wanted to be a writer since I was seven. And then I took an astronomy class in college and realized that I want to be a science fiction writer. So I've been thinking that I will transfer to a university and study astronomy. But now this possibility is crumbling. Apparently you have to finish all the lower division courses before you can transfer, which is three semesters of math and physics that I was planning on doing there. I don't expect to get into San Diego State, let alone anywhere. There is no way on this Earth that I will spend two more years at community college. I moved from Santa Rosa because I was bored of it, and the community college I am at in San Diego isn't any good. It's also very depressing to do the same thing over and over and get nowhere.

So now I am uncertain about what to do. I could move to London, a place I have always loved even before I visited, or I could try to get into college in another area of study, or I could drop out of college and work, or take photography and photoshop classes and try to do that until I feel satisfied with my writing to submit stuff and hopefully make a living out of my own ability. Or a hundred other things. If I am not admitted into SDSU next year then I think I will give up on the whole astronomy thing, and if that's the case I do not want to be taking calculus and chemistry next semester. And if I am not in college I will have to work in order to live, and that's pretty expensive for me -about 1200 a month. That doesn't include insurance or my car payments.

I guess my most ambitious outlet right now is photography. I love it in every way that qualifies as work. For right now I am going to try and be more active in it.

For example, I have to buy photoshop.

My last journal entry was almost a year ago... That proves how much I currently care about deviantART. Anywhoooo, I am currently doing a whole bunch of planning for the future. Though I do not wish to disclose information about those plans here on the pointless internet, they will be drastic; if I succeed I will be traveling some. My brain has begun to explode and I feel that I must use it. Staying in Santa Rosa makes me feel like a child. This is mostly because I still have too many things around from my childhood. So, I am going to launch myself into some new things, and expel the old.
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I think I'm back. But we will have to see. I'm not setting any goals or forcing myself to submit deviations of shabby pictures. Just looking towards some new good things.

I've taken a leave of absence. Expect nothing here.

Today is the last day ar rcc youth group. I'm going to miss it. And I would also like to state something, a sort of resolution. My resolution for the future is to write as much as I can, to continue to seek God and understanding of his word, to find peace and to forget the things that I have forgiven. To move on with my life and make something great out of what I am and what I want to become. Wish me luck.
-Sarah Nicole Davis